I have been so far away from blogging and journalling in general, that I forgot I owed this blog some dedication and time. The past lot of months were ridiculously fun- so obviously I was too caught up. Now that I have a little me-time and not much to do let’s get back on the field, shall we?
I’ve always been a shy, reserved person to a good 50% of the people I’ve met/known in my life. To the remaining 50% who happen to know me more than what meets the eye, I’m a completely different (read crazy) person. To call me a bundle of contradictions would be an understatement. Excuse me for saying this out loud but aren’t all of us like this (even if remotely)?!
I am a simple yet complicated being, leading a monotonous ordinary life who believes under no circumstances that she is not extraordinary. (Yes, you have no idea how important I think I am).
I am a situational pessimist and an eternal optimist, knowing that there is going to be sunshine after each rain, a lot of relief following agony and pain.
I am a laughter riot and a weeping mess, realising I’m most alive in these forms, and I’m just human to feel so much.
I am a solid rock with the softest core maintaining a balance between emotion and rationale.
I am a raging bull and a mewing kitten all bundled up as one.
I am a needy wreck just as I am an independent queen , depending on how my moods swing.
I am fiercely loyal to and frighteningly dependent on my loved ones.
I love without regrets and hate without meaning- I am just who I want to be.
I am a hopeless sinner and a seeker of my Lord, having faith that He is capable of endless mercy and boundless love.
I am a little bit of you, a lot of me and a lot of you and very little of myself.
I am just a Paradox. Of my own being.
Admit it, we all are things we say we are and we say we aren’t (even if slightly). And it is all a 100% true. There’s not much difference between we the people, is it?! In fact this is the only connecting link amongst us all – the paradox.
To infinity and back,
Maliha Taqui. 🙂